Salam
I was just lying in my bed staring out the window as the rain fell lightly outside, and I found myself wishing I could just go sit outside with a cup of tea and a blanket. I just want to sit there and stare at the large tree that drapes beautifully in my neighbors yard.
I’m quietly freaking out.
On Monday I have my diploma for math. This is my deciding factor on whether or not the program I am accepted in to will give me a permanent place. I can’t fail…but I know I will. God, why didn’t I study harder when I was in Morocco? I did study, but not nearly enough. I maybe covered three units. THREE! Oh, for the love of God, why am I such a freaking procrastinator? WHY?! I’m toast.
I know it’s just an exam, but…but, I need to do this program because I already took a year off of school. I’m falling behind all my peers. But, I don’t think I want to do this program. What was I thinking? I can’t be a doctor! I hate school. I hate exams.
I was going to update yesterday, I even wrote an update but I never posted it. I don’t know why.
We went to watch district 13. Go watch it, because it’s really a pretty kick butt movie.
I’m still freaking out. I still want to sit outside in the rain. I want to go for a walk, and breath, but I know I won’t.
Gosh, this is probably my most pessimistic post up-to-date. I hate pessimism and I hate it more when I’m being a pessimist.
~Pink Gerbera~
I was just lying in my bed staring out the window as the rain fell lightly outside, and I found myself wishing I could just go sit outside with a cup of tea and a blanket. I just want to sit there and stare at the large tree that drapes beautifully in my neighbors yard.
I’m quietly freaking out.
On Monday I have my diploma for math. This is my deciding factor on whether or not the program I am accepted in to will give me a permanent place. I can’t fail…but I know I will. God, why didn’t I study harder when I was in Morocco? I did study, but not nearly enough. I maybe covered three units. THREE! Oh, for the love of God, why am I such a freaking procrastinator? WHY?! I’m toast.
I know it’s just an exam, but…but, I need to do this program because I already took a year off of school. I’m falling behind all my peers. But, I don’t think I want to do this program. What was I thinking? I can’t be a doctor! I hate school. I hate exams.
I was going to update yesterday, I even wrote an update but I never posted it. I don’t know why.
We went to watch district 13. Go watch it, because it’s really a pretty kick butt movie.
I’m still freaking out. I still want to sit outside in the rain. I want to go for a walk, and breath, but I know I won’t.
Gosh, this is probably my most pessimistic post up-to-date. I hate pessimism and I hate it more when I’m being a pessimist.
~Pink Gerbera~
2 Comments:
You watched District 13??
It's on my to-watch list of movies :D. It's the one about the fictional French ghetto right?
Salam!
Ya! Bro it was soooooooooooooooooo good. You have to go watch it. And yeah it's about the French ghetto. It take place int he future when france is set up in to ghetto's.
yaar, I know you'll like it! Especially Parkour...or urban freeflow.
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